3rd

This morning, I blocked you again so you would not appear on my chat list and I won't appear online on yours.

I have to do this, for my sake.

Yes, there are moments when I say to myself that I am being selfish, that you might need a friend and I am not there for you. But I must do this, so I can truly get over you.

Last night I cried a little bit. I reminisced and thought of the times we were together. We were so happy when we first met and when we first got together. I hope that there will come a time, that I will only remember them fondly, without any trace of sadness. Now, I can feel that I still long for you...for your presence. I miss you. So much. I want to hug you Gui, and I want to be held by you. I so miss you.

I miss the moments when we would just joke around, and laugh silly. I so want to make you laugh right now...

I miss the sound of your voice...I wish I can hear it again.